Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Mental Health Stamps

What's your secret to stay on top?

There’s a competition to design a stamp for Mental Health Day. Apparently this is a huge fundraiser for both the Post Office and the MH society.

Once the artist completed the design, the entry gets posted online and by the end of the month the viewer will be the judge. The creator is supposed to market the likeability's by wearing a T-shirt, talking to the local newspapers and link it on Facebook.

What excites me about the corpus at this point, is the variety of ideas on sound sanity. It’s about friendship and hardship; taking hands and letting go, imagining a safe place and finding a home, enjoying a job and volunteer, saying yes and saying no, thinking with your head and acting with your heart.

Most of us can add to the list still growing and please do.

To keep one’s wits in every season life throws at you, one has to be anchored whilst reaching for the top.   Sometimes it's to shake a leaf, rely on inner sources, break a branch, but when summer comes it's to be fruitful, nurturing and to cast a shade.

Purchasing a mental health stamp to mail a payment, sympathy or kind regards? It doesn't matter, what matter is the someone behind the counter who can appreciate a customer playing to his or her heart’s content.

My wish for you is to design a stamp and to live it.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Who wants to be a nerd?

Urban word of the day: "You're a nerd when your IQ exceeds your weight."

That's why I'm having a double-double and a maple-doughnut for now.

Not that I really need an excuse, but rather safe than sorry.

Happy holidays to you too.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Mudstickers on SUVs

In the country where I spent most of my life, there is quite a gap between the rich and the poor and only the former can afford to buy SUVs. Getting out of the parked vehicle wealth by the stretch of the arm will sound, WEET-WEET, to activate the alarm.

SUVs and Jeeps have another gig – they are issued with mud stickers - yes fake splashes and stripes for the less adventured.  True or false this makes the playing field more even and the poor can cease-fire: the vehicle is to the owner of such an expense that outdoor-trips over dunes and through dungeons are in overdraft and placed on the dream list. Mudstickers must do the trick.

In Canada all cars WEET-WEET, every car get splashed and salted and car-wash services are offered at almost every gas station. 

My children drive nice cars and by paying the monthly installments, they know a car wash is a healthy alternative for a rusty, weathered car.

So here I am in the passenger seat in front of the black hole. The driver follows the directions and skillfully tracks the wheels, neutrals the gearstick and sits back. Mighty streams of water power down and foamy sponges from behind, front and sideways make an awkward noise. Next are huge blue rubber arms swinging to and fro. I fear the charcoal car is to be stripped from all paint, like in the Namib Desert where I heard cars can get metal silver sandblasted in minutes.

Rollers out of the the dark, rise, pluck and scrub the vehicle slowly-slowly moving towards the front. I think I can add one more thing to my growing list of pains – I’m claustrophobic. “Now is not a good idea to get out of the car,” says the experienced driver.

From nowhere comes a northern wind and pushes every drop of water from the windows into the deserving sky.

The driver turns the engine on, pays the attendant and drives to the parking lot where most of the cars, SUVs and Jeeps are in desperate need of the next power wash. Needless to say the shiny charcoal Mazda stands out in the crowd.

Snow-splash-stickers or mud-blob wannabees do not have a market over here for winter gives every Canadian driver a daily one for free.

WEET-WEET my story is out.  

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Green Fairy

together we sit on a huge rock
watching the wind blows stories from long ago
maybe we are in a dust bowl
or  on top of a red dune in the desert
i tell you
you are my best friend ever
i loved you since the day you were born
you smile at me
and take small cubes of sugar
to drop into silver goblets

do you also believe in green fairies?
they were there

Sunday, November 21, 2010

A vision of the World

With decorated pine trees in malls and gardens, easy to ensemble fakes on fliers and boxed on retail-racks, we know Christmas is coming.  Jingle Bells and Mister Snowman over the intercom contribute to the jolly-holly spirit of spending big time and after every trip the heap-up of red, green and golden boxes in front of the fireplace grows.


Between the junk mail are Christmas cards on recycled paper, donations wanted; self stamped envelopes and a pamphlet of World Vision: “Livestock will help the community break the cycle of poverty” with pictures of cows, chicken, goats, pigs and rabbits.

Years ago Ricky invited me to accompany her to visiting a severely abused girl; called Samantha X. Ricky was a journalist for a Christian magazine at the time and at the foster home Ricky interviewed the parents, while I spent time with SX, recovering from chicken pox.  The mother asked me to put some Calamine lotion on the marks, but every stroke resent a shock through little Samantha’s body, as if she’s reminded of being cigarette burnt all over again.

Never in my entire career working with children as such, I’ve seen such expressionless eyes. The blue eyes literally shut down, her spirit smothered by years of maltreatment.  To compensate for her loss, her room had enough toys and apparatus to outfit an entire Kindergarten. Toy companies like Fisher-Price and Lego were so taken by her story that they treated SX with the very best. Every now and then SX  got up from her tricycle, reached for a toy, cautiously pat to see if it’s real and then went back to her position of observing.

Ricky called us to the sitting room where tea was served. The foster mommy asked SX to sing us her song and with a sweet resonance, but stripped from emotion SX followed the parents’ voices: “Jesus loves me yes He do…”

It was my turn being shocked. “Jesus loves this little totally traumatized child? Is it not rude to let her sing this of all songs? “

The foster dad must have read my mind and said something never to forget: “SX must regain her trust in mankind. It’s easier for SX to externalize the message, whilst slowly integrating Love and Trust by realizing the foster parents are the hands and the heart of God.” Many years passed and for all we know SX is a mother today, playing with well cared for children and not thinking back.

Bless the many people and companies reaching out to those suffering a lack of what we consider as basic -- restoring the belief in mankind. I once again open the pamphlet of World Vision and look at the pictures of the children, patting animals. “We donated a stable of animals,” says Judy Clark from Nova Scotia. In front of the fireplace are a Christmas tree with the gold, mirth and incense underneath and inside the stable a donkey.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Be yourself -- WHAT?


The one thing that freaks me out is if someone says: “Just be yourself.” It is quite common practice to encourage the candidates with the words during beauty pageants, competitions, job interviews and other stressful situations.

Ever tried to figure out whom else can the candidate be, but him/herself? Sure one can be stressed-out, nervous, angry, forgetful, but the name tag doesn’t change.

During a training session for counselors, a delegate mentioned there are two kinds of patients: “Those who want to be helped, and the other not so much.” He doesn't get the facilitator idea, but he'll hopefully get there.

The next fellow totally agrees, mentioning a patient being with the 13the counselor and describing the tactics and different schools in detail. Who says practice doesn’t make perfect?

This phenomenon can be described as integrating loss or pain as an identity. The patient can gain confidence by reminding him/herself of intense situations, subconsciously believing that in the case of another occurrence, the patient will be prepared. Say Mary can’t have children and keeps telling her story to everyone numerous times. She becomes Mary Childless were Sophie in a similar situation moves on and is Sophie without children. This principle can be applied to many life-altering situations.

Mary is a perfect example of being "pro-active" by answering questions in advance. Sophie on the other hand deals with it only when she needs to.

The question isn’t who upholds the truth and who not, both Mary and Sophie own their status.

(Even diagnosed with a multi-personality disorder and hospitalized,  the patient has only one body, one soul with different names).

The good news is: You are yourself, no need to try and be it.  So next time you’re stressed-out, angry, worried, snappy or whatever, embrace the emotion and work through it.  Decide whether you want to be Tommy-X or Tommy who has X.

Please don’t try to be anyone else, because the good news is you simply can’t.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

writer's block.

They say a picture says more than a thousand words.
The writer couldn't find any...




Photo courtesy of John Calitz

Friday, November 5, 2010

Samantha goes to Cannes

After two years of writing, many listings in competitions and a couple of weeks before the Cannes Film Festival in France, Samantha receives an e-mail to die for:  An invitation to meet with a producer. A script must not gather dust they say, so Samantha heads to the mall and finds a travel agent.

Unfortunately even the last minute deals can be pricy and as one can imagine the bank is not too lenient when it comes to increasing limits on an ordinary job and bi-weekly salary.  Samantha maxes her Visa out for the all inclusive travel plan and one star hotel in Nice.

At 16:00 our time Samantha arrives at the airport with 120 Euros, a travel bag stacked with energy bars, cheese, cereal, a borrowed jacket and a script to sell.

Security at the airport is tight and the length of Samantha’s trip raises suspicion. “You fly to Nice, stay for a day and return? What’s your business, Madam?” Samantha decides there’s no time like show time, pitches the logline and gets her seat secured after a totally unexpected reaction: they inquire, wish her good luck and treat her like she’s famous. Samantha starts to feel like Cannes.

Three flights later, a pulsating headache, airbags under the eyes and flight snacks in the bag, Samantha pulls her luggage down the narrow ally in Nice, trying to find the single starred hotel before the sunset. French for beginners doesn't do the trick, but luckily there’s a fellow that walks Samantha to the hotel and thank her for the opportunity to practice his English.

The hotel with the cold-water shower doesn’t have shampoo included, but Samantha finds a supermarket around the corner with everything from bananas to liquor and lucky for her, shampoo.

The night underneath the window has lots of not so kosher activities going on and sirens of police cars patrolling, can be heard into the early hours of the morning.

Around six Samantha ignores the mirror, puts her high heels in the backpack where the script is and sneaker it towards the crowded train station. Festivalgoers with Cannes-badges, cameras and name brand clothes pay and run to platform 2.  After 11 Euros for a return ticket, Samantha runs and catches the train just in time. The next train is only in two hours and will make her totally late for THE meeting.

In Cannes the red carpet gets rolled out in front of the hall where Angelina and Brad are to walk later the day. At first Samantha ends up in the wrong line-up for last minute passes, run to the Palace entrance and gets a dreadful picture on the pass to wear for the rest of the day. Looking at the picture totally unnerves her -- so much for the first impressions, but no time to ponder. Five minutes before meeting the producer, Samantha walks the pebbled pathway between the yachts, the waving flags, tents, and drizzling rain and away from the red carpet.

While waiting Samantha frantically recall what to say when meeting with the producer. Pitch, followed by more movies of that kind, then favorite actor and then closing the deal.

The producer is ten minutes late and Samantha follows him to the deck with umbrellas and wine. After the small talk the producer asks his one and only question: “What’s the budget?” Samantha remembers something about low, medium and high budgets and with a certain amount of confidence she says: “High, very high.” He must be an excellent judge of character.  He pushes his luck: “Six figures-like?”

"Two Million I would say?" Samantha sees him gasping for air and assures him she’s talking US not in his currency. For the next five minutes he lectures Samantha, burning to pitch, on budgets and ends his pitch with: ”2 million US or Euros or whatever currency is a very low budget movie”.

Samantha accepts the glass of wine. The producer has another meeting, so he runs off with “It was nice to meet with you”, and leaves her on the deck. The kind waiter puts his hand on Samantha’s shoulder and serves her a sandwich.

For the rest of the day Samantha hangs out in Cannes, hides behind the sunglasses, uses her pass to go to screenings, cheer with the crowd when a celebrity is said to be behind the hundreds of flashing cameras and every now and she sits down to drink a five Euro American coffee. Samantha catches the last train back to her one star hotel in Nice.

Early the next morning she checks out and wanders in the streets of Nice, visits the flower market and sits on the beach.  By dusk she counts the last of the Euros for the taxi and can’t wait for the meals in flight.

After deplaning Samantha is recognized by the security guard of three days prior to her leaving the country. He treats her as if I walked on that red carpet surrounded by the Paparazzi.

{Samantha still pays off on her Visa card. Samantha still writes scripts. And Samantha still can’t spell budget, but she’s working on that.}

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Fortune Cookies

  


Fortune cookie
(Adapted from Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia)

 Did you know?
*    The exact provenance of fortune cookies is unclear.
*    A fortune cookie is a crisp cookie usually made from flour, sugar, vanilla and oil with a "fortune" wrapped inside.
*    A "fortune" is a piece of paper with words of faux wisdom and lucky numbers.
*    Fortune cookies before the early 20th century were all made by hand.
*    Fortune cookies are often served as a dessert in Chinese restaurants in United States and some other countries, but are absent in China.
*    The factory in China ran out of business. (Consider exporting to North America where everything is made in China.)
*    Shuck Yee from Oakland, California invented the fortune cookie machine that changed the industry dramatically. The machine allowed for mass production of fortune cookies, which become the novelty and courtesy dessert in many American based Chinese restaurants.
*    Although many people do not take the message in a fortune cookie serious, many of them consider it part of the game that the entire cookie must be consumed in order for the fortune to come true.
*    How the cookie is selected might change the outcome—with closed eyes, passing a cookie to another person at the table, or choosing the cookie that’s pointing directly at you.
*    Messages include promises of finding the pot of gold, the perfect partner, good health, travelling the world or lucky numbers. The first the most popular.
*    Some cookies have no message inside. (That’s kind of rude)
*    “The hands holding this paper will not do dishes again.” (Can go either way) 
*    “Beware of cookies bearing fortunes.” (This employee/writer is on thin ice, getting fired)
*     Legend has it that a couple of Chinese immigrant women landed jobs at a fortune cookie factory in America. Amused by the unfamiliar concept of a fortune cookie and after several attempts translating the fortunes into Chinese, they came to the conclusion that the cookies do not contain wisdom, but "bad instruction."
The piece of paper might be (un)fortunate, but the cookie "good idea".




Sunday, October 10, 2010

TO FIND A WAY

In Jerusalem is the Kotel HaMaaravi, better known as the Wailing Wall. “It is thought by Jews to be the most sacred of places, because the temple itself was thought to be the place where God lives on earth. Praying at the Wailing Wall signifies being in the presence of the Divine. Jews from all countries, and as well as tourists of other religious backgrounds, come to pray at the wall, where it is said one immediately has the ‘ear of god.’ Those who cannot pray at the wall can send prayers or ask for the Kaddish to be said for departed loved ones. Prayers sent in are placed into the cracks of the walls and are called tzetzels. There is usually a small charge for this serve.” (Google)
Catholic churches have the Holy Mary holding the crucified Jesus in her arms. Many candles burn in front of this motherly statue and grievers continue to show up during the course of the day. Churchgoers open their hearts to ask, thank, repent and confess. During Penance -- also a popular scene in movies -- the troubled tell the story to the listening Priest who then encourages him / her to take action and sin no more. 
A modern take on the above mentioned practices are tattoo parlors. A trouble shared is a troubled halved; joy shared is getting joy multiplied. Many using their bodies to state an idiosyncratic / warrior spirit; religion or commitment to lovers, children and pets.  Sketched and burnt-in, the permanent doctrine is for all to read and in some cases to weep. However, tattoos are not for everyone. 


Not uncommon is the practice to spray-paint one-liners on murals during the late night or the early hours of morning. 
The thing about the Airport
It's kind of far...
Sad, but true.
I love you, Jeremy 
Amen.
When last did you look up and see
A shooting star?
Those who weren’t hit by a meteor, might look up.
I hate you Jeremy.


Sorry to hear.
LOVE IS NOT OVER YET...
Promise or threat?

I might not belong to the Catholic church or have any tattoos and the airport is kind of far, but every time I walk passed this, I have my own moment of penance, a tzetzel, a shooting star, before life soldiers on.

I’m sorry Mama
I messed up. 
I didn’t know...
(Not the exact words)
Don't we all?



Saturday, October 2, 2010

Worth living it.

” There is a time to be born and a time to die.” It is then in between this uppermost and lowermost ends, that we grow in a particular direction.

During the first years of life and according to the epigenetic scale of Erikson the infant will need maximum comfort with minimal uncertainty to trust him/herself, others and the environment; the toddler then works to master physical environment while maintaining a self-esteem; the preschooler begins to initiate activities; develops conscience and a sexual identity where after the school-age child tries to develop a sense of self-worth by refining skills. During the challenging adolescent phase the child will try to integrate the many roles into a self-image under role model and peer pressure; and comes the stage of being a young adult the individual will learn to make commitments to one another and the financial world. It is only then that satisfaction will bring productivity into a career, family and civic interests. According to Erikson the elder person can finally sit back and review life’s accomplishments, deals with loss and prepares for death.

Erikson’s epigenetic scale can be interrupted at any time when the umbilical cord to life gets cut. Death doesn’t take age in consideration, neither people left behind. Having to say our last farewells to a person who’ve become and integral part of our being, which shared in our hardship, which celebrated and rejoiced great moments together, is one of the most unsettling events in life. Dealing with death is to suffer the end of a journey together.

After the initial phase of shock, an emotion of overwhelming emptiness usually emerges. Our aims to fill this emptiness or void engage memories and flashbacks, revisiting incidents and/or attempts to hearten the next to kin.

Emotions varying from anger, depression, to heartfelt sorrow can surface at anytime. Being able to acknowledge the many different emotional responses without regarding it as a negative, will allow the griever to work through the process towards recovering. It is useful to find the polarity of the emotion -- for instance when one feel deeply troubled to count the immediate blessings; when sitting in the darkness, at least to turn one light on. If one can’t find the balance, ask for professional help.

Physical activity adds to bring the energy home. When running a marathon one tends to be aware of one’s own breathing, muscles and footfall. Not that all of us can run, but we can do gardening or take the grandchildren for a walk.

Accepting grief, actions and feelings as part of the grieving process. Stop being brave and take time to actively grieve. Set aside a place and time to be a person who grieves the loss of a beloved one. Talk about your concerns; talk often. If you are called upon to be the listener, then listen with genuine empathy -- really pay attention to what the griever has to say without trying to fix the problem. Unless appropriate, set personal experience of own losses aside and listen.
The first steps back into the world are often quite a challenge. There are birthdays, thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years-eve, baptisms and weddings, vacations and celebrations. Guilt can keep one from investigate in life. At this point it is appropriate to give thought on the process of dying. According to many in the care giving profession, the process of dying is to detach from our affections, earthly body and limiting perimeter and moving on to the next dimension that is believed to be an arm-length away.  Guilt doesn’t serve a purpose beyond this point.

When we as the griever reach the crossroad or Impasse, we return to normal daily activities, grow to understand our feelings about death and embrace the challenges of life on a budget. The assistance of a financial planner, attorney or legal adviser is a good idea. When the grieving spouse then introduces a new friend to her children or family the latter will rest assure that the newcomer not a gold digger, help filling the void with excessive spending and leaving the widow / widower with little financial means behind.  

What then is the purpose of the grieving process? Boundaries shift to unknown territories of the psyche; emotional energy splits between what should have been and what is, inner control shifts to external control -- like a pendulum to the far ends, and then less intense. The grieving process “buys time” for the griever to restore the homeostasis, the balance between the absence of the deceased and presence, the past with and the future without. It can be reasoned that the griever acquirs skills as to master this life-altering incident.

The deceased were not perfect; they also had their flaws, their irresponsibility, and their personality traits that in the end might have contributed to their early departure from us. Being able to forgive, to letting go of the regrets and blame and to integrate the time together as a blessing, is to become a seasoned traveler.

One day our family and friends will sit in this park, remembering each of us. How they will honor us is in a way up to us -- in our daily contact with others we write our own eulogy. Let us then, while being reminded of our mortal bodies, give ourselves permission to take delight in our being.  Take a moment to appreciate yourself, your blessings, your family, and your friends. A moment will become a minute, a minute an hour and as the years go by May you be able to step back and say: “Life wasn’t always smooth sailing, but it was worth living it.” 

When the journey ends, it is only the beginning.


A memorial speech delivered by Johan for Wall Customs Service during September 2010.



Saturday, September 25, 2010

Farewell Summer

In memory of summer
Be sure to bring some flowers
For the next time we meet
I might have added a year
In experience
And you a couple of seasons

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Sunday Morning

Ducks in a row as the latecomers take their seats in the front row, under the watchful eyes of Bennie the preacher, a genius narrating and improvising as the hour goes by.

INTRODUCTION
Dear Congregation
Today we’re going to look at changes – and our resistance thereof.

TEENAGER
It’ll be a nice change if I get to sleep in on a Sunday morning…

PATERNAL VOICE
Hush – it’s the church. [Why do we silence children for the better of ten years and thereafter expect them to speak their faith out loud?]

BENNIE
The story: One day a Baptist comes to visit the Dutch Reformed Church and finds his way to the front. Used to the Baptist way of doing things, the preacher says something appraisable, he raises his arms and calls out loud: “Praise the Lord.” To great discomfort of the churchgoers it becomes a race between the preacher trying to stay focused on his text and the Baptist doing his thing. David the elder and known as the preacher’s advisor and confidant feels compelled to take action. Brother Baptist is ready to raise his arms when David, waiting for the moment, grabs him from the back and says: “In this church we don’t ‘Praise the Lord’.’”

[Laughter]

Bennie proceeds, keeping in mind that the choir resists using the talented guitar player during the upcoming Thanksgiving.

BRINGING IT HOME
He now points at the fatigued teenager boy in the front. “Say!” says Bennie “ Your Dad has a donkey car and it’s your daily duty to take care of the donkey and see that the wheels of the car are pumped before the parents leave for the market, selling corn and other fresh farm products.

Now, close to your sixteenth birthday, you find the barn locked and the donkey car and donkey outside. You try to get into the barn, but without any luck.

Then the day of your birthday finally comes and Dad gives you the keys and off you go to unlock the barn. You expect a brand new donkey car and if you’re really lucky a donkey to replace the obstinate mule.

You unlock the shed. You can’t believe your eyes. It’s a red one. Shiny red Z4 BMW out of the box.

Bennie looks at the totally astonished teenager’s face. A moment –
THEN

The sister next to him must have forgotten all about silence in the church. She jumps from the uncomfortable pew, throws her arms into the air and responds: “Praise the Lord.” The youngest of the three is taken by the moment. He jumps onto his feet and claims the backseat of the BMW. “I’m coming with.”

And so do the rest of the young ones.

AMEN
Says Bennie and makes for the exit, leaving the ready-for-change followers and David, the elder behind.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

GPS


“The GPS is a bit pricy, but such a fantastic help for directional challenged,” says the girl with the piercings in the ears, nose, lips and who knows what else. The thought of getting to the desired destination without the trouble of pulling over and buying coffee to ask the way, justifies the price.

Armored with the little screen in my window and Lee’s American-English-voice, I hit the road. It’s not a good time, I might add, where construction workers frantically try to beat the snowfall of the coming winter. Lee recalculates the moment I skip the turn onto the restricted road, but much to my surprise Lee takes me around the block and after ten minutes of driving, ending up at the same NO ENTRY sign. Lee yells at me and I yell back, later turning Lee off and once again buying coffee to ask for directions at the nearby gas station.

Not willing to call it a day, I pull over and turn the GPS on, only this time I change the voice to that of a woman. She might be more sympathetic, less recalculating, but Suzy is even more persistent. “In 800 meters turn right” she says. I can’t. I feel bad for her having to recalculate every time. She must think I’m a total idiot or getting the impression that I don't care to listen.

“Mom” says my daughter two weeks later. “You take this way too personal. You can use the DETOUR-option you know?” She takes the GPS and scrolls down the tool-button. “Let’s try another language,” she says. “Ry veertig kilometers en draai regs op die Guelph lyn” says Jan in Boer-Afrikaans. I laugh. “You’re kidding me.” Jan gets displeasured, but continues to give directions as if he sits next to me.

When I see the girl with the piercings again I’ll thank her for giving me direction. However, it will be of interest to know if she has a GPS with the option of choosing between a pleasant voice and a demanding one.  

Sunday, September 5, 2010

MEANDER -- FOR JC

An empty nester, according to the Mac dictionary, is “a parent whose children have grown up and left home.” It sounds so straightforward that can one can hardly imagine the complicatedness thereof.  Or is it that simple?





The youngest is first to leave the house. Plays the violin and sings in the men choir; does yoga, his paintings and photos hanging in diverse locations, special treats comes from the waitress at the Sushi bar and he spends his vacations in Vermont and Mexico. On top of all this he's a student at Western and decides to join the Naval Reserves.

The not so easy part is to come to terms with the Naval Reserves. Does the child need some kind of challenge? Has life in a First World country become tedious, compared to always-eventful Third World where ducking the bullet is part of your day?

Does a parent have grounds to interfere in the twists and turns of a child’s choices when s/he seemingly has it planned out?  Is it about the parent or the child? The parents cashed in their pensions and retirement plans to purchase flight tickets for the family, restarted their careers at the bottom and often at minimum wages, gave up the close circle of friends and family to ensure the children’s safe and unhindered maturing. Is it then regardless the outcome?

After doing extremely well in his basic training in Victoria, he decides to join the Regular Force.  To come at peace with the possibility of a child going to Afghanistan is almost unbearable.

He spends seventeen weeks in Quebec, catches up with the French language and gets promoted to a Logistic Officer. How can a parent not be proud?

The youngest child is soft-spoken and kind. He’s an artist and musician. He still comes to visit, but he’s climbing the steps in a country he refers to as his home. He looks stunning in uniform amongst the appreciable, exceptional circle of friends. The youngest child landed a family, near and dear, where he can anchor and explore.

He’s a trooper, besides he’s the one who spread his wings long before the other two even considered to leaving the nest so empty.



  

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I have a friend...

The both of us married gorgeous men; one a farmer, the other a minister.
Omnipresent is a good word to describe the loves of our lives.
Sometimes she wants to run away, sometimes I do. We don't judge -- we understand how breakfast, lunch and supper can become less adventurous, more of a predicament.
We talk about Broadway in New York, alley cats in Italy and Island-martinis, high-heels and dancing all night as if we're still young.
My friend knows how important anti-wrinkle cream and hair-dye are and how devastating pineapple crowns can be.
I brew coffee and she bakes cinnamon apple pie.

I have a friend.

Oh, Mother!

NOT FOR SENSITIVE READERS.

“Hunting with Mother.” Three words can portray an entire story and adding a spoonful of neurotic spice to it, stakes are high for a things-will-turn-sour, plot.  After the opening explanation it is appropriate to introduce the handsome, methodical, uncompromising Johannes as our protagonist. (A forth trait needs to be added where the story will not be the same without it). Our hero is accident-prone.

Let’s do a flashback. Grandpa John invites Johannes to go hunting with him and they spend the summer learning the tricks of the trade, practicing and target shooting on the farm in the Orange Free State. Then finally the day comes, but the eleven year old and captain of his rugby team has to play before driving three hours to meet with Grandpa for the big hunting expedition. Minutes before the final whistle blows he scores the winning try, but then the opposition’s number two decides to bring an end to future victories and falls on him, leaving Johannes in a sullen state of mind and on top of it a broken arm. After spending some time in hospital, he phones Grandpa and arrives hunting-ready on the farm, arm in a cast with sling and gun over the shoulder. A couple of days later the local newspaper honor the courageous boy posing with the deer antlers.

The first turning point comes when the now twenty-two year old hero’s hunting companion, who also happens to be the father, takes a trip to Europe and Mother insists on going along. Johannes made a study of the why and how of hunting as if he’s doing a Masters, but the know-it-all Mother hunted with Grandpa John since very young, not using any of the expensive online gadgets. Long story short, Johannes gives the ultimatum, the rejection of it will result in a breakdown of relations. Mother doesn’t have the nerve to let the child go hunting on his own in the snow covered woods and in case of an accident. After a lengthily debate she agrees on using the smelling-like-a-dear soap and wear the heavy hunter’s orange jacket.

When night finally shakes hands with dawn, the hunting party against the horn-scraped tree, is ready. Deer can walk by any minute. Totally excited by the movement in the bushes, our hero signals Mother to be very quiet, but the very moment the statuesque buck appears, Mother coughs the potluck and composure away. Johannes swings the gun over his shoulder and extends a very cold hand to the anti-hero, with the only thing on her mind -- Leonardo’s famous Titanic moments before he drowns. “It’s cold, very cold.”

In the freezing forth hour of the next morning and undoubtedly tagged as insane, Mother escorts Johannes once again, the latter looking like a pack-animal with the gun, blanket, chair with hot pillow and a flask with coffee. Wretchedly uncomfortable he takes the long road; walks passed the apple plantation, over the uneven plowed field, alongside the winter wheat, before finally perches against the tree with no scrapes. Mother burns the incense sticks and performs a ritual, trying to add humor to a very lame situation.

Snow wipes through the branches and Johannes hoot-hoot the calling horn, but after a few hours of waiting, he empties the magazine. “Let’s go”, says he with aversion that can set the bush on fire. Our hero is devastated.

Mother on the other hand is kind of happy for successfully refraining from coughing, opens the flask and offers Johannes steaming hot coffee while chatting along. He folds the chair and then…there is such a thing as divine intervention. Johannes drops the chair, digs into the pocket of his jacket, find a cartridge and fires. It all happens in a split second and Mother, partially deafened by the bang, still recognizes the sound of a sure hit and sees the deer downed. 

It’s time for another flashback to remind the reader how far away from the vehicle this hunting-couple is.

Every story has a beginning, middle and after the big show off, an end. For this the writer has to wrap it up, but for the hunter not so much. Our hero reminds Mother of the next step – skinning and needing all the help he can get, because with frozen fingers chances are that “the accident-prone boy can cut himself”. Salt in the wounds if you’ve ever heard of it. Mother isn’t too good in dealing with matters as such on an empty stomach, but has no choice. Johannes’s girlfriend believes meat is grown in vacuum-packed units more or less like pop in a can, picks Bambi as her favorite animation and the rest of the possible helpers study for exams later this day.

Anyhow, our triumphant hero tolerates no excuses from the nauseous Mother who after the skinning assists him in getting the hundred-and-fifty pounder onto his shoulders.  White as the blowing snow, she gathers the blanket, chair, flask, jackets, gun and staggers behind Johannes-hunter through the bush; alongside the winter wheat, over the uneven field, underneath the clutching apples trees towards the car looking like a huge heap of cream.

Humor, says the dictionary, is “the ability to perceive what is comical, ridiculous, or ludicrous in a situation or character, and to express it in a way that others see or feel the same thing.”

The end.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

A good match.

Life out in the country has its advantages. The panorama of every sunrise and palette sunset; sitting around the fire, watching thousands of fireflies on the grass and shooting stars against the howling jackal nights. For the months of summer farmers gracefully change the colour of surrounding areas by alternating fields with corn, beans, winter wheat and sunflowers. Wintertime in the country is more of a challenge and chances are  fairly big that one will end up in a ditch, getting stuck in the driveway, hunt or hit by a deer.

One says: “I can retire here.”
Other says: “Sure, but till then we must find life elsewhere.”
One and Other move to the city.
One says: “It’s loud.”
Other says: “Sure is. The apartment you picked is right downtown and so are the bars.”
One says: “I’ll use earplugs.”
Other says: “Check the line-up through the window. The girls got confused and wear their summer skirts.”
One says: “The legs are kinda purple.”
Other says: “It’s 3:30 in the morning and it snows.”
One says: “Darn sad OSAP goes down this road. You think the parents know?”

Coffee shops, restaurants and cafés compete with lunch specials and pizza-delivering isn't a problem at all. The train and Greyhound is a block away and so is the square with departing busses every 20 minutes. One can take any and many trips with a month-pass. Bus number 9 goes straight to the mall with Final Sales all year round; number ten takes a detour, 11 stops at the hospital and 54 in front of the movies.  Bus drivers are friendly and direct any lost soul towards a desired destination. 

Other says: “There’s a very senior couple on the bus. The wife is very matriarchal, sits with her purse on her lap and gets the husband with the cane to watch out for their stop -- as if every trip is their first.”
One says: “Really?”
Other says: “The wife wasn’t with him today, hope she’s not ill.”
One says: “They’ll be fine. Did you see my earplugs?”
Other says: “We must find another place.”
One says: “Thought you like it in the city.”
Other says: “I have to scroll the bar way down to find my year of birth on the computer. It means I’m getting old.”
One says: “I miss life out in the country.”
Other says: “I saw two skunks in the park today.”
One says: “The earplugs?”

Either or, one is less and one is more.


Monday, August 23, 2010

The Magnolia Tree

  1. MAGNOLIA TREE
May 16, 2009. It may not be the best morning for it, but I’m in desperate need for some reassurance -- any kind, honestly it doesn’t matter, as long as it happens without me spending money on it.

Inside the wardrobe hangs the antique gold dress and underneath it a pair of matching high-heels. Is the head with curly blond hair on the pillow catching butterfly-dreams? Do you remember how you carved your preschool boyfriend’s name with a pin on our headboard and gave your Dad a going-away list for shoes, purses, jewelry and frangrance totalling one hundred Rand at the age of seven? Do you remember how you refused to play with toys in the sand unless it was washed? Do you remember the day you were born?
The delicate morning haze encircles me as I get into the car parked between the many cars of bridesmaids and guests. I’ve no idea where I’m going, but keep driving until I see a huge Magnolia tree to the left. Can it be? I hit the brakes; steer over the dirt road and minutes later standing under the embracing readiness of soft white and purple flowers hanging from the dark branches. With my back against the bark I watch as the morning mist draws magenta stripes against the amber sky. The bumble bee humms its permission and I open the trunk.
Johnny helps me to carry the magnolias into the kitchen, puts it into the copper can and takes my hand in his. “Are you alright, Mother-dear?” He puts his arms around me, pats me lightly on the back as the bride-to-be in pajamas enters. Her bright blue eyes and sunny smile remind us of our commitment -- nothing worse than sharing good or bad news or letting go of emotions that can wait till the next day.
Paula Hairdresser, the breakfast-bunnies and the make-up team arrive on time and turn one after the other vanity into stunning readiness. Ron and Louisa’s garden is in full bloom and the pictures taken, awesome. The wedding party adores the couple and the bridemaids literally pulls the red carpet when it’s time for the bride to get into the Limousine.
Lingering bells announce her arrival. The young bride takes my hand in hers, looks me in the eyes and says: “Let’s give a moment for my soldier brother fighting the war; for Grandma whose name I so proudly carry, the grandparents and family who wished to join us today.”
I tremble to put it mildly. Actually I have the shakes like some thirty years ago, but then again I had my Dad’s arm to hold onto and the bouquet of wild flowers from Mother. 
To the left are roses in memory of the mother of the groom. Christine calmly takes a match and lights the candle next to it, before walking the Royal Trumpet March into the future where Mike smiles, the bridal party smiles, Nicole Flowergirl smiles and so does her father on the pulpit and every guest gathered in presence or absence to celebrate the day.

I give the most gorgeous, joyous bride away.  

Friday, August 20, 2010

Arrival

January 29, 2002. My family and I land as immigrants in a country where temperatures are described as plus or on this day minus 24 with a windchill of minus 30. Carrying suitcases from arrivals to the pickup zone becomes a daunting task, but the first stop and from this day, Tim Horton's is my beacon of sweet reassurance.
We instantly fall in love with the house in the country; duvets on the beds, candles in place and the fridge stocked with delicatessen to help us through the long nights of jet lag. In the weeks to follow our vocabulary expands with words like power-outages, snowstorms and -plows, scary black-ice, unbelievable beauty of jack-frost -- not to forget the luxury of scholars being picked-up by yellow busses. 
“The honeymoon phase is soon to pass and then reality kicks in” says a friend on his way back, but pardon me! We have no time to spare. I mean, after 45 years suddenly having to drive on the opposite side of the road, following directions from north to south, east to west when one can hardly see the sun; looking for Maizena that happens to be cornflour; tekkies are sneakers, vests thermal underwear, jerseys sweaters and robots traffic lights. Reality my friend? Reality is when you get swamped, speak your mother tongue to strangers and English at home. 
After the second month and the many faces of snow, subtle green appears on the branches of the huge Maple trees and within a week the harvesting of syrup in sugar bushes becomes a huge attraction for the survivors of winter-claustrophobia.  Saturday mornings have pancake breakfasts at the local churches with the promise of strawberry suppers later on. 
Bells chime and spring gives birth to red and yellow tulips, the appearance of daffodils, lilies, chipmunks, squirrels, birds and black flies. As if this isn’t rewarding enough, everyone gets an incentive: clocks are put on hold for an hour and the calendar sends an invite to everyone: Barbecue and tan for the entire nation celebrates the radiant summer. 
If this is honeymoon, I’ll stay married to Canada for the rest of my life. 

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Welcome

Welcome to my blog where ink and paper connect to bring stories from around the world. I'll start by introducing myself. Being a social worker in private practice and Oncology for many years and with the children out of hands, I completed a Masters and PhD at the University of Pretoria under the mentorship of Dr. Hannie Schoeman. Soon after our immigration to Canada I took up some Screenwriting courses and completed two features listed in International competitions. Challenged to write 3 minute shorts and in partnership with Christine, we made it all the way through to being finalists thrice. Scripts, I believe must go to screen and that's what we're doing, although still in the process of learning.

Our Motto: Attending Film Festivals, volunteer and networking!

Do I long back to the days being a Social worker while writing articles for leading women magazines? Maybe it's just a matter of thoroughly enjoying what I'm doing and where I am right now.